Fast Day 3 Highlight


Monday July 13th 2020

This is a crucial day. In general when fasting, it is said that the third day is the day when your body tells you to retreat. To reconsider and perhaps stop. I mean eating offers such a momentary blast of associated joy that our body on the 3rd day is willing to believe anything or anyone in order to get food again and fall back into past habits.

I am glad I am staying the course, i need this breakthrough more then I need the food...what is my body if devoid of Divine guidance, are we not all here for that single reason?


Insights Day 3

7:19 am

This is a crucial day. In general when fasting, it is said that the third day is the day when your body tells you to retreat. To reconsider and perhaps stop. I mean eating offers such a momentary blast of associated joy that our body on the 3rd day is willing to believe anything or anyone in order to get food again and fall back into past habits.

Right now, my biggest thing is the feeling I am going crazy. I see my tendency in being in a state of idleness, not knowing what to do, doubting myself and so on.

I believe I feel this way because I am going from one person to another. And the gap there is between who I was 3 days ago and who I am being transformed to be is the complete unknown. And that is the scary part:

Not being in control

Not knowing what the next move is

Fear of failure

Fear of inadequate faith

Etc.

So right now, I choose to tell myself:

The best part of the fast is yet to come

Who I am on the other side of the fast will know all things

No matter what my brain tells

Me now is an attempt to bring me back to status quo...a status I am running away from and CANNOT go back to

Let’s see what there is on the other side of overeating

I am an extremist anyway so go all in

Become the observer in this journey and observe my thoughts, mind and body and savoir the journey

Become curious about the un disciplined child within that is trying to manipulate me into the unsatisfactory know just because it is known

Become the person you were meant to be

Push through

You can do it...I mean you are doing it

Keep your mouth shut and take advice from no one but the One who strengthens you and have you your body to start with

I believe I have a perfect body, mind and soul and since it was given to me by God, so again must it be fully restored by G.od

Be still and know that I am G.od

7:56 am

I was meditating on fasting and how it « should » be done to obtain success? Then studying the scriptures came to mind. As I was about to reach for the scriptures, something asked me: what about Moses who completed an 80 day dry fast? Do you think he was studying the scriptures while accomplishing the longest fast know in history?” My answer came right away: “NO”

So then if this is true, what do I do? My answer: get closer to G.od, listen for His/Her voice, get to know the Divine language and modes of communication. Become 1 with The Earthly Mother, become 1 with the Heavenly Father.

How? Enoch gave us the answer from long ago and it is translated into this simple sentence: “be still and KNOW that I am G.od”

8:24 am

I just finished planning my day and felt an overwhelming pressure. My heart is pounding knowing that all day my mind will be occupied with worldly tasks that do little to increase the glory of the Kingdom of heaven. Yet I feel obliged to do it. How can I make it stop? How can I accept the Divine guidance and know that all will be ok until I finish this fast of obedience?

8:56 am

I gave 44 years of my life to "food stuff" that repaid me by giving me a crippled body, foul breath, broken teeth, thinned bones, cracking joints, bumpy skin, frail nails, thinned ha ir, inflammation etc. you think I can give my body a rest for 44 days? I certainly hope so. It might not be easy yet necessary. I must put myself together to see what is on the other side of eating and lack of vitality is not an option. If it were, all the ones that have fasted before me would have perished as they performed the fast. It is time I look away from mainstream and find the answers within. The only way to find the answers within is to be willing to shy away from all that is external including, the news, past teachings, books, food, etc. nothing know to this world must go in but what is Divine...what is born of flesh is flesh and what is born of the spirit is spirit. So I choose, I polarize myself even more when the things of this world wants to abase me to its little power.

11:49 am

My stench is putting me beside myself. I cannot take myself anymore. I am glad I am getting the first apocryphal confirmation that my fast is going the right way. In the Essene book of peace I saw that you are on the right path when you see abominations coming out of orifices, and bad smells as a confirmation that the earthly Mother has appointed her angels to do the cleaning of the perfect body she originally gave.

12:33 am

I am now nostalgic about the taste of food. After convincing myself to go on, I moved on to the desire to just buy food for the sake of it even if I have enough of it home and at hand.

19h13

I have a headache, my top back teeth are hurting, I still smell so much that I made a man jump a few inches away from me LOL I have weird thoughts coming up, I chase them, I pray, I ask, I help people around me and pray for them as well.